Here are the things I'm moving towards in 2012:
Physically: Kick the baby weight to the curb. I'd like to reach a healthy, sustainable weight in August, which would be one year after the birth of my son.
Mentally: Keep learning braille. Find a way, make a way. Never, ever, ever quit.
Relationally: Keep in touch. I absolutely suck at this. I am the worst. If I don't see you on a weekly basis, you probably won't hear from me for months at a time. Like 7 or 8 months. I save messages that I want to respond to and they are buried alive by newer messages that I'll also ignore.
This year I want to remember that a short response is better than no response at all. I want to remember that there are people in my life that I refuse to let go. I want to exert more effort in order to move my relationships (with a specific, select group of people) from A to B. From acquaintances to friends. From friends to friends who talk regularly. From friends who talk regularly to friends who can call each other and say, "I'm having a bad day."
Spiritually: I am going to read the Bible in it's entirety. It's been several years since I've done this, and my heart beats fast to think about all the ways God will teach me, mold me, challenge me, and reveal Himself to me as I dive deep into His word and swim around.
But wait! There's more!
Move towards minimalism. I want to stop living with 3238967289347 contingency plans stashed in my garage and closets and attic. I do not want to keep things "just in case." A person does not need 8 sweatshirts and 4 coats. I do not need 3 sets of dishes. I do not need books that "I might read one day." If I want to read it one day, I'll get it from the library on that day. Newsflash, Americans: we do not need one of everything.
One day last year, my family got together to visit my grandparents in Chicago, and on that day their toilet stopped up. My mom had to run over to the neighbor's house to borrow a plunger. After the debacle was over, my mom said to my grandma, "I'll have to run out and buy you a plunger before I go home." To which my grandma replied, "No you don't. I have a plunger. It's next door."
I want to live like that.
Practice structure. I don't do routine. My children don't have a bed time, or a nap time, or a meal time. I don't have laundry day or grocery day. The thing is, I love structure - ardently. I thrive in a system, with accountability. I want my calendar to reach it's full potential - be free, little calendar! Reach for the stars! I want Monday to be library day, every week. I want to be able to count on it, count on myself. Tuesday & Thursday are school afternoons- so while M is out, what will I do with that time? When will I do my braille? When will I do my correspondence? What bits of scripture will I read each day? When will I declutter the kitchen cabinets? When can I exercise, realistically? I want to pursue self-discipline and create a structure for myself that makes me better.
I also want to:
- Update my will.
- Keep reading fiction.
- Successfully cook a pot roast. (So far my track record is not great. Recipes and suggestions welcome.)
- Remember to bring my reusable bags to the grocery store.
- And play outside more.
What are you moving towards in 2012?